Thursday, April 24, 2008 18:04
i can still feel your anger there .
if you say you dont have a father ,
den you ain't suppose to be here ?
how can you be here ; in this world living
without your father and mother
infact i feel that you should actually not blame her or so
because she brought you life which you had know ling
that's one thing you will never regret right ?
you got what you wanted ,
i've got what i wanted too
but not from my parents now
when i was young , yes . i got what i wanted
if only i do well in exams and stuffs
but now , not anymore
infact , i got the things i wanted from my uncles and auntie
let me tell you something you will never imagine i have thought of
no one ever knows
not even my boyfriend which i tell him almost every shitty craps i've done
including those stupids one
ever since the birth of my brother
i hated him
my parents doted on him like a very precious gem
and me and my sister are like shit ?
everything and everytime my brother does something wrong ,
we are the one we get scolded
there was once ,
i could not take it anymore
i really wis at that moment i had a pen knife with me
bleeding slowly to death
i ain't afraid
i dont want to jump down from a building
dying so ugly
(imagine you jump down and die and your blood all splash out)
at least bleeding slowly to death is much better
no one ever know
well , best of all is get run down by a car and die
then the next thing came to my mind
what if i dont die ?
i will suffer more right ?
at the same night ,
i cry real hard
not because i am sad but because i am very angry
then something came to my mind
which is that i've got a boyfriend who loves me
uncles and aunties who dote on me
if i die , they will surely be sad
and my parents too
since that day , i've thought hard
for every action i do
there will be a consequences behind it
no matter if it's big or small
someone / somebody will get hurt
same logic applies
if you give in this time , ling will not be hated so much by your mum
ps: my parents dote on boys more
& if you love ling like a precious gem
this is part of the obstacles that you two will face
i've faced it and overcome it well
you need to make a choice
to face it , you have to give in and no ones hurt
to run away , den all i can say is you are a coward
which i believe you ain't
if you love ling , & for the seek of the both of your future ,
give in to her . i can guareentee you that it will help
infact it only does good for the both of you . seriously .